Scattered Memories are memories you can find scattered through Wonderland that show important moments in Lewis Carroll’s and Alice Liddell’s life. These memories can be only seen if you have 0 SEN and you have to visit the specific locations to find them.
Lewis Carroll is the writer of Alice in Wonderland books – he named the main character of the books, Alice, after Alice Liddell. She was important to him in real life, as well as in the BLACKSOULS series.
The places where you can find the memories are:
- Beach of Grief – next to a boat.
- Carroll River – at the lower right part of the area.
- Circus Tent – an area in one of the circus tents in Queensland.
- Croquet Grounds – an area inside Red Castle Frissel.
- Endless Tea Party – at one of the chairs at the table.
- Ox Ward University – Lewis Carroll’s room, access the room in the hallway on the right on the university’s bottom floor – there’s a secret door behind the 2nd painting in the 3rd row.
Beach of Grief
The memory at the Beach of Grief starts with the narrator talking about the feelings of true love and how “he” will find “her”. After that, you will be hearing the thoughts of Lewis Carroll, who’s still wondering how many years have passed since “then”. He’s still a friendless bachelor spending all of his time on math, photography, and writing.
Every night he remembers Alice and her “dazzling smile”. Lewis Carroll has grown old and he wants to see Alice one last time before he dies, and that’s when he receives an invitation to a Christmas party sent by Alice Liddell.
Lewis Carroll is very happy, not sure how many years have passed since the last time he saw her. He’s wondering if she will even let him take a picture of her again.
When the day to see Alice again came he was looking for her all over the venue but was unable to find the little girl, and that’s when an old woman called his name and when he turned towards her he saw something he wasn’t expecting at all. The little girl he admired isn’t so little anymore as she’s an old woman now after so many years passed – that realization made him leave the party as fast as possible and his sadness then set in.
Alice had married and lived a rich life, and that ruined his dream and broke his heart.
Lewis Carroll noticed a pile of old photographs and a single copy of a fairytale greeted him when he came back home. Alice was still a little girl there, asking for more of his stories, so he wishes to go back to those days and he asks God to hear his wish if he exists.
Then a “disgusting high-pitched voice” pierces his ears, saying “Kihihihi! You seem like you’ll make a fine material! Allow me to use you, okay?”, which is most likely the voice of Mary Sue.
Carroll River
The memory at the Carroll River is a poem Lewis Carroll wrote for the preface of “Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland”. The poem in the game seems to be unchanged for the most part – at the end of the poem the words “Little Girl’s dreams” are put instead of “Childhood’s dreams”.
Circus Tent
The memory in the Circus Tent starts with someone pondering about love, after forgetting all of it for so very long. The narrator spent their every waking moment thinking about their first love but they never put it to words, so they spent their time embracing another and whispering fake love, his eyes were so similar and also a “perfect distraction from the chocking loneliness and hollowness of it all”.
After that, there’s a description of the glittering night sky, laughing stars, and love crossing social barriers. But the “little girl” forgot about dreaming and she married a man more appropriate for her station when she became an adult.
She burned all presents and letters that were spelling out certain someone’s feelings for the “little girl”.
The narrator wanted to abandon the memories of the past. Her life turned out to be “astonishingly unastonishing” now that she’s an old woman lost in thought while peering into the night sky.
Her son watched her in worry one night saying that she should moderate observation and that the night wind is bad for her body. He offered her some black tea, she thanked him but she wanted to be alone because the stars were “awfully beautiful tonight”.
At the end of the memory, the old woman is addressed as Hargreaves, which confirms it’s Alice Liddell because that was the real-life surname she got from her husband. But then all of a sudden “the selfish god crawled closer”, the world started changing, and “the fantastic tales which were meant to be over were about to begin once more”.
Croquet Grounds
The memory at the Croquet Grounds is pretty short – it’s about Lewis Carroll giving Alice Liddell the original manuscript of “Alice’s Adventures Under Ground” which was handwritten with illustrations he drew himself.
Carroll dedicated the book as “A Christmas Gift to a Dear Child in Memory of a Summer Day”, and Alice was troubled because she was very happy so she felt obligated to give something in return, but he just told her that he only wished for her to stay a charming little lady forever.
Endless Tea Party
The memory at the Endless Tea Party starts with the narrator saying “Ah, how wonderful it would’ve been if the two in love could remain together for a lifetime”.
Shortly after that, there’s a description of “bells of the end” echoing throughout the world along with the rumbling of the earth. A man woke up under collapsed rubble and outside he saw blood rain from the sky while the streets were full of “grotesque malformations”.
He thought that the whole thing was just a nightmare, but he wasn’t able to remember anything about himself and his surroundings at that moment.
Suddenly, a young girl told him to follow her and she pulled on his arm. She had golden hair and blue eyes and was in a blue and white apron dress, so the man followed her without understanding why.
He followed the girl and then he left the nightmare – she brought him into a dream-like land where animals shared the language with humans, things that weren’t were and things that shouldn’t be weren’t.
That girl brought him to Wonderland, the land of dreams, the world for him – the memory ends with presumably the girl telling the man to live with her and the others in Wonderland, in peace forever and ever.
Ox Ward University
The memory at Ox Ward University isn’t too long, and it starts with Alice skipping class to visit Lewis Carroll’s room. She’s complaining about how she hates studying history, saying “What is the use of a book without pictures?”.
Lewis Carroll tells her that mister Robinson has prepared a useful lecture for her but she doesn’t care and is more interested in Lewis Carroll’s stories, so she asks him whether he’ll tell her another wonderful tale today.
Carroll agrees, and he asks her if he may take a picture of her before he begins telling her a story. She agrees and tells him to make it a cute one.
The memory ends with someone outside his room telling him that the dean has called for him, the girl hid in a hurry. Carroll then received a notice of sudden transfer because the dean (Alice’s father) suspected an improper relationship between his daughter and the teacher, the memory ending with “It was enough to tear the two apart…”
